Melankolia Menggantung

bersama yang berkeliaran
di malam
dan di dalam
kita berhenti sejenak
sejengkal dari waktu
dan nikmati keraguan yang psikedelik



Malam awal musim panas

gerutu yang tak cerdas

dengan sedikit noda cat di tangan
dan pening yang menandai malam
harus segera berakhir

kita menggerutu
menggerutu bersama

tentang kewarasan yang timbul tenggelam
tentang yang datang dan hilang
tentang yang mendekat
hanya untuk menghilang
entah sesaat, atau entahlah

kita menggerutu
menggerutu bersama
tentang paras, tentang majas, tentang malas
dan tentang segala yang bias
kita menggerutu
gerutu tak cerdas


#malam di akhir musim semi dengan cuaca yang kerap digerutui

half an hour before class

curry with overly thick soup, check
mixed a bunch of pepper, and a handful of chili powder, check
that was two or so hours past
and it's over
like all calmness of indifference
when I got caught between two unknowns

one was nice, the thought of losing it was
painful
two were a mistake
a dreadful one

nice music online, check
class materials, check
that has nothing to do with half of me
anxious, sleepy, half conscious
wandering through the torturing unknowns
by Todaro or Smith or Toynbee
or whoever
or whatever

one was brilliance, the thought of losing it was
a sorrow
two were gorgeous
mistake